This shall be a quick post, just about gaming.

Now, many people know that I'm not an MMORPG man. I'm into games that have objective, games that go somewhere. People also know I enjoy roleplaying, But because of said aversion to MMORPGs, I don't typically find place to roleplay that much. The few roleplay forums I had joined in the past have shut down or since become inactive. And while I have yet to pick up an MMORPG that really appeals to me...

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There was an excuse here for the massive lack of updates, but I've started using a new excuse to do/not to do things.

I'm Indiana Sutanto.

See? Just state your full name as a reason for anything and it works. Kinda.

For those of you who don't care about me/are idiots (Surprisingly, those two go hand in hand), this is what's been happening for the past few weeks.

Rockshow
Went awesome. I have videos, apparently...somewhere. Still, those who were there know it was a great show, and kudos to those who played that night. But Hobo WILL do the curtain act for next year. And by that I mean be the last band on. Were gonna work harder'n hell when the exams are over, work be dammned.

Sweet Charity
Also went awesome. Ask anyone. I don't have to vouch for this because it WAS most awesome. Kudos to my cast mates, who now make the list of the few people I care about. I can't

Project Week
Hell yes. Pictures and video up soon. And there are lots of them.

Exams
Not fantastic. But fuuuuuck. Don't matter.

Workload
Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.

So yeah, that's alot of stuff. Which is why I haven't updated...

Yeah, they are pretty shit excuses. And I know I come onto this damn thing every so often and claim that somehow I'll find a way to update every other day, but Shruti was right-- that's looking to become more and more impossible as the year goes on. Right now I'm working on a Philosophy log on Nietzsche, the Ubermensch (Superman) and all that sort of thing. Amazingly interesting stuff, but as of this moment everything's hovering over me like a goddamn black shadow waiting to descend and eat me. Shall we see what that shadow is made of?

University
I've resigned to the fact that yes, I will in fact have to go to University in Australia. Seeya naive childhood dreams of doing theatre in the States, Would've been fun. I have a new plan, of course. Do an undergrad at an Aussie Uni, go to either NIDA, WAAPA, or VCA (all arts schools in Aus, and damn good ones at that) maybe even build up a CV, and THEN go to the States. So, all my friends in America, I apologise, but you'll have to wait a bit longer for me, whilst my Aussie buddies get the full Indi experience. I'm also suffering a bit of a culture crisis. Now that I know I'm going to Aus, the whole fact that I don't give two shits about the country and feel next to no pride in supposedly coming from it is terrffying me. I don't know why, and I don't care.

However, this leads to a more positive note on:

Grades
Whilst my exam results were not fantastic, bear in mind I've predicted at least a 30-35 score on my final IB mark, considering my coursework in subjects and bonus points. Also, a low IB score translates very highly in the Aussie system, and I'm taking THEATRE. So buh bye working super hard. I'll miss you.

Going back into the suckfest that is plauging me...

Someone's being a douchebag again...
Not going to elaborate.

Women
I'm giving up on someone, I still miss someone, tried dating other people to get over people, didn't work, no connection, no soul sharing sort of bond, completely depressed about this, will shut up now. The quote at the end of the episode made me laugh with a sad irony.

The Band
Okay. I know this is a little bitchy, and that's fine, but I'm pissed out of all the bands playing in the Element evening tomorrow, we weren't even asked. It's a little selfish, a little assholic, but I am insulted we weren't asked. We're one of the few bands in the school that gives absolute dedication to practice and performance, and the fact that noone approached us kinda ticks me off. Finally after a long hiatus that happened after exams we're getting back together on Friday, along with a new member...that only I know about.

Workload
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

So yeah.  On the upside, theatre galore for the next couple of weeks. Attempts On Her Life, a play that was supposed to perform at the begining of this year that I got into but did not perform due to unfortunate events has come back on, and I'm doing sound for a the Ramanyana and I'm stage manager for Ophelia Thinks Harder ( I think that's the name...not sure.). I'm determined, determined, DETERMINED to win the theatre award for next year, and NOT the backstage one, despite the fact I'm doing two backstage works this year. I want to perform as much as I can before I leave, and I have a crafty plan to allow me to do that.

What else? Saw Star Trek the other day. Absofuckinglutelyfanfuckingtastic. Loved every minute of it, and Prash and I were both Trekkie-ing out during the movie, I swear to christ. James and Pip also tagged along, at which point I had to relay the events of all the other Star Trek movies to Pippa after the movie during dinner, despite my insistence she did not need to know them, and could in fact, just watch them. This summer only has two more films which I'm anticipating with anticipation, those films being, G.I Joe and Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen. Wolverine was a good movie, not a great movie, which is why most of my hopes are riding with Fallen. I'm pretty damn excited for it, truth be told. And I do hope Leonard Nimoy voices the Fallen.. It'd just make the movie.

So yeah. That's what's up.

I just wish I could shake this feeling of loneliness off me.

'Till Tomorrow

Indi

"Okay, I'm going to say something out loud that I've been doing a pretty good job of not saying out loud lately. What you and Tony have, what I thought for a second you and I had, what I know that Marshall and Lily have, I want that. I do. I keep waiting for it to happen. I'm waiting for it to happen. I guess I'm just tired of waiting. And that is all I'm going to say on that subject."
-Ted Mosby, played by Josh Radnor on How I Met Your Mother






 

What else? Sweet Charity rehersals moving along smoothly. As smoothly as can be. Learned all my lines, and the like. Things are a bit confusing, considering I've been tossed into some scenes that I didn't expect to be in, but it's alright. I shall survive.

Got my results too, HOORAY FOR MEDIOCRITY! An abundance of 5's and 4's, with a single 3. A couple of insufficients here and there for organisation mostly, but we all know that's due to my "only the important shit" work ethic. As for my TOK grade, it can go jump into a pit full of robotic transforming snakes from the planet Cybertron for all I care. And yes, fothermuckers, I did slip a transformers reference in there.

Been gaming quite alot recentley, as I haven't been able to go out much, despite my rich takings from Chinese New Years. I've shoved all the money into the bank, as I'm actually tying to save for a Wii. Partially because when I buy it, it'll be mine and I'll probably take it when I go to uni. Despite my distaste for the console, mostly in part to it's shitty third party games as well as inferior tech, there's no denying that it is an amazingly fun console. I'm aiming to track down Raving Rabbids 1, 2, and three for it, because I do think those games are absolute pure genius. Smash Bros as well. Considering the fact that you can mod the damn thing, and DL the games, I have a feeling that it'll be a great console for me, money wise.

As for games right now, been gunning BioShock and Eternal Sonata on the 'ole PS3. They are absolute opposites, as in Eternal Sonata I don't expect a splicer to run at me yelling "I SHIT BIGGER THAN YOU!". There's no doubting that both are great games, although I have pointed out in the past BioShock has it's flaws. Sonata's a big relief for me though, having a fun almost Tales-esque RPG is refreshing after slinking through the halls of Rapture. On the handhelds, Chrono Trigger DS, as well as Rhapsody, Dragon Quest IV, and Disgea DS have my RPG self warpped up nice and smug. On PSP, finishing off Patapon as well as Dissidia and both Star Oceans have occupied my time. I'm cramming as much gaming as I can, considering I have a feeling I won't be able to do much once school starts.

Project week has been a pain in the ass, considering Aysha's parents somehow manage to be conserative freaks on just about anything. What kind of parent says you can't have long bus rides? =__= Project isn't about staying at a fancy hotel champange while the locals sweep your room. It's about roughing it and getting down and dirty, and I'm not having that compromised. She's a great gal, and we're not giving in to whatever her parents think project week is. Fighting is something I've always been good at.

As for me...still bitter. I'm almost used to it now. The greyer days don't hurt as much, but they're still there. The drink helps, but not by much....Christ. I'm not going to say I don't remember the last time I was bursting at the seams happy, because I do, and the pain is I wish I could feel that way again. But it's alright. I'm content with what I have now. I'm surrounded by amazing people, and that's what will hopefully get me through the bitter. Though I doubt it. I think I could be like this for a long time, and bear with it. But you don't know what the future holds, and I don't pretend to. I can only ever hope. All I can do is keep going, with the burden on my shoulders, but with my head straining high.

And just so not to end this on a depressing note:


Any game with this guy as a playable party character has my money. :D

GOD I want Final Fantasy XIII right now!

Also, trailer for Batman: Arkham Asylum looks sweeeet.

'Til Tomorrow

Indi

"I know what it feels like to have a future filled with doubt. To feel overwhelmed… To think it’s all over... To want to give up on everything… But, there’s no use just thinking about it. You can’t hesitate. You need to act upon it. Since in the end, all you can do is try as hard as you can."
-Polka, from Eternal